Why??

Since I know that virtually no one reads my blog, and it's just to release my anger/feelings/frustrations, I'm once again sitting here contemplating why it's fair for all these women around me who get pregnant just by looking at them funny, yet, DH and I are in a loving and committed relationship and have been trying for 10 months now. Seriously, how is it fair? Then I have "friends" on myspace commenting daily about wanting to get an abortion and that just sends a wave of different emotions through me and I want to cry. I'm at the point where I just don't care anymore and just want to call it quits. This is what I want to see again, but that's all just wishful thinking

Aside from all my depression on the getting pregnant situation at hand, the past few days were so beautiful and I finally got to take Shayna outside for a few days in a row without layers of clothes and she had so much fun. Here is Miss Drama Queen herself

Oh, and of course, it wouldn't be complete without pics of her running around the house too.

OMG, who is this baby?

So, my wonderful hubby was finally released from the hospital this past Thursday and he is feeling much better. I'm so glad he is home, it may sound cheesy, but we actually miss each other when we're apart for a few hours, let alone 4 days. I guess we're one of those couples that can sometimes make you gag, but we are madly in love, and I wouldn't trade him for anything. Ok, enough of my mushy and sappy ramblings for now. I'm finally sitting down and enjoying some much needed ME time after dealing with what I will call my "replacement baby" for the fifth day in a row now. I'm calling her my "replacement baby" because I haven't quite figured out what happened to happy-as-a-clam Shayna. I swear someone pulled a switch-a-roo in the middle of the night or something. She used to be perfectly content with her toys and playing in her saucer, but for the past 5 days, she has turned into "Miss Royal Highness" drama queen with an attitude. She has became so clingy and whiny it's ridiculous and then she screams if I try to hold her when that's what she was wanting. She cries for no reason running around the living room, cries if I leave her sight, cries if I try to feed her anything other than fruit or spaghetti, and she used to eat anything and everything. Man, it's been rough around here, lol. Oh, and here's a perfect example: This was taken today. I walked two steps out of her sight to get the camera out of the car, and she lost it.

So, this has been my life for the past 5 days now, and I don't see it ending soon so I'm going to add some pics of when she was actually happy today since we were finally able to go outside.
Oh, and let's not forget the few times she was happy inside today, which was not very often.

Poor hubby!

David was very sick last week, and he went to the doctor yesterday. Turns out his has pneumonia and was admitted into the hospital. They have him on an iv and antibiotics to fight it off; they expect a 2-3 day stay. I miss him so bad, but I know he needs to get better. So, I took Shayna up there yesterday, and that was quite an adventure. She was not happy and pretty much screamed the whole time, she just doesn't do well with strange environments and it really freaked her out. Needless to say, I only stayed about 20 minutes and then had to go to Walmart afterwards. I'm going back today to see him after she wakes up from a nap so hopefully she'll do better today.