As promised, lots of pictures!

Summer coming to an end

As it does every year, the unbearable humidity and heat starts dissipating followed by the pools closing and then being able to open the windows and give the a/c a break, yeah, it's going itno the fall season which is my favorite time of year.

Not only is my birthday in the last part of October, but that is also when we got married and Halloween time. I just love the smell of the crisp autumn air with the dry colorful leaves framing the yards in a portrait-like way.

I'm am looking forward to Halloween so much this year since Shayna is older and will probably enjoy it more so than last year. I have no idea what she is going to be this year, but I do know that I want it be something ever so girly.

Aside from all my rambling on the fall season and leaves, blah, blah, blah, we decided to re-list our house with a different realtor since our old one wasn't doing the job. Not only that, but we have decided to move to Tennessee instead of Texas. There were many factors that contributed to this decision, but it basically boils down to money and HOA fees.

Well, I'm off to do some laundry and clean up the house some.... there will be some pics to follow later.

It's been way too long.

This post will probably be long and full of pictures since it has been so long since I have given an update.

First off, Shayna is doing great and growing way too fast. She has 8 teeth now, 4 on top, and 4 on the bottom, including 2 molars. She was 23 lbs and 32 1/2 inches at her last appointment in July. She also is finished with all of her vaccinations until kindergarten. Here's the little turkey now.

Aside from my little tater tot growing up before my very eyes, things have been busy around here. We bought a new camper and a new Dodge truck, we have been camping twice, and the second time, which was about 3 weeks ago, I got a severe ear infection (first one in my almost 26 years of life) and that hurt worse than labor, let me tell you. Plus it started trying to make a reappearance yesterday , and I'm just hoping I have enough ear drops left to clear it up and not have to go back to the doctor.

Hmm, what else? Our house has been on the market for about 115 days, and we're getting antsy to move to Texas before another winter here.

Other than that, I think I've pretty much brought you up to speed on things here. Sorry, it was so boring, lol.

Why??

Since I know that virtually no one reads my blog, and it's just to release my anger/feelings/frustrations, I'm once again sitting here contemplating why it's fair for all these women around me who get pregnant just by looking at them funny, yet, DH and I are in a loving and committed relationship and have been trying for 10 months now. Seriously, how is it fair? Then I have "friends" on myspace commenting daily about wanting to get an abortion and that just sends a wave of different emotions through me and I want to cry. I'm at the point where I just don't care anymore and just want to call it quits. This is what I want to see again, but that's all just wishful thinking

Aside from all my depression on the getting pregnant situation at hand, the past few days were so beautiful and I finally got to take Shayna outside for a few days in a row without layers of clothes and she had so much fun. Here is Miss Drama Queen herself

Oh, and of course, it wouldn't be complete without pics of her running around the house too.

OMG, who is this baby?

So, my wonderful hubby was finally released from the hospital this past Thursday and he is feeling much better. I'm so glad he is home, it may sound cheesy, but we actually miss each other when we're apart for a few hours, let alone 4 days. I guess we're one of those couples that can sometimes make you gag, but we are madly in love, and I wouldn't trade him for anything. Ok, enough of my mushy and sappy ramblings for now. I'm finally sitting down and enjoying some much needed ME time after dealing with what I will call my "replacement baby" for the fifth day in a row now. I'm calling her my "replacement baby" because I haven't quite figured out what happened to happy-as-a-clam Shayna. I swear someone pulled a switch-a-roo in the middle of the night or something. She used to be perfectly content with her toys and playing in her saucer, but for the past 5 days, she has turned into "Miss Royal Highness" drama queen with an attitude. She has became so clingy and whiny it's ridiculous and then she screams if I try to hold her when that's what she was wanting. She cries for no reason running around the living room, cries if I leave her sight, cries if I try to feed her anything other than fruit or spaghetti, and she used to eat anything and everything. Man, it's been rough around here, lol. Oh, and here's a perfect example: This was taken today. I walked two steps out of her sight to get the camera out of the car, and she lost it.

So, this has been my life for the past 5 days now, and I don't see it ending soon so I'm going to add some pics of when she was actually happy today since we were finally able to go outside.
Oh, and let's not forget the few times she was happy inside today, which was not very often.

Poor hubby!

David was very sick last week, and he went to the doctor yesterday. Turns out his has pneumonia and was admitted into the hospital. They have him on an iv and antibiotics to fight it off; they expect a 2-3 day stay. I miss him so bad, but I know he needs to get better. So, I took Shayna up there yesterday, and that was quite an adventure. She was not happy and pretty much screamed the whole time, she just doesn't do well with strange environments and it really freaked her out. Needless to say, I only stayed about 20 minutes and then had to go to Walmart afterwards. I'm going back today to see him after she wakes up from a nap so hopefully she'll do better today.

The first birthday party...finally!

We finally had Shayna's party yesterday. The YMCA did everything for us, and I was pretty impressed w/ all they did at the incredible price. The cake was pretty, but it wasn't very good, but I can't complain about it since it was free. The day went pretty well, but Shayna was a mixture of unpredictable emotions with all the people that were there. She got a lot of summer clothes which is what she really needed, two gift cards, and a few other little things. I'll leave you w/ a bunch of pics from the party.

Oh, we can't forget about the cleanup to get the cake out of her hair when we got home.

no luck

The curiosity was killing me, and I took a pregnancy test yesterday, against my better judgement, and yet again it was a negative. I just don't understand, am I being punished for something? There are so many women around me turning up pregnant who didn't even want it to happen, yet here we are, trying for 10 months now, and nothing! I can't even begin to explain the heartache, loneliness, and anger I'm feeling . I'm very grateful that we were blessed with Shayna, but I want more children. I never thought I would even be a mother due to all the failed relationships I have had, and here I am, a mommy- it's such an overwhelming, yet great feeling.

On a lighter note, David came down with something and was very sick Wed, Thurs, Fri, and is just now starting to feel better and actually keeping some food in his system, so I've been taking care of him and Shayna. We actually made it out to Walmart today, but he's still not feeling 100% better so we didn't stay long. Shayna is getting her 4th tooth, so we got her her first toothbrush (sniff sniff), some sleepy lotion, and a few other odds and ends. This is Miss Thing getting into the trash and being nosy- check out her cute outfit that my Aunt Anita got her.

So, I guess that's pretty much it for now, I just really needed somewhere to vent about my frustrations and depression I guess. Shayna's party is tomorrow after being rescheduled for the the blizzard, so I'll post some pics from it in the next few days.

Stupid weather

As a child, I can distinctly remember sitting outside in shorts and a tank top on

Easter. Those days have been gone for a quite a while now, and our seasons have drastically changed; it actually snowed on Easter two days ago. All this un-spring-like weather has me seriously feeling the effects of cabin fever, and everytime we have warm temperatures, you can count on it raining. So, I'm very much looking forward to the 70 degree weather, but not the hot and humid sticky summer weather at all.

Well, Shayna is growing up so fast, and it's leaving me with serious baby fever. We have been trying for our second now for 9 months with no luck, and every month that I'm not pregnant just eats at me and breaks my heart. I'm in the 2 week wait again, and won't know anything until the April 2nd.

Well, that's about it for now, I know I have a boring and pretty uneventful life, lol. I need to get a few things done while Miss- I -No- Longer -Need- 2 -Naps-A-Day is asleep.

It's been a while

Well, no matter how much I try to keep updated with this thing, it never fails that I always have something else to do, or Shayna is consuming my every micro-second, thus not allowing me to sit down and write. So, I'm going to try to remember to do this at least once a week from now on.

A lot of things have happened since my last update. Shayna has mastered the walking skill, and is all over the living room now. She also is starting to have temper tantrums, which is oh so much fun, and she had her first birtday on March 5th. Her party was supposed to be on the 8th, but we had a blizzard, and it had to be re-scheduled for the 30th.

Other than that, it has been the same-old stuff aroud here. It has been pooring rain for the past two days, and we're starting to see some sunshine today, so after Shayna wakes up from her nap, I'm going to take her outside.

What happened to my little baby?

Amongst the million things that float through my mind daily, I am wondering who took away my delicate newborn baby and gave her this newfound sense of independence that she is developing, and while she relies on David and I for everything, she is changing so fast and it's very bittersweet for me. I have watched her achieve every milestone with both happiness and sadness at the same time. She just started taking her first steps on the 13th and that is so surreal to me. Soon, she will be one, oh how the time flies.

On to a lighter note, I have been trying to wake up my dear sweet husband for an hour now so we can go get a few things and I have had no such luck. I try so hard to do things around Shayna's nap and now that's out the window. For those of you who don't know, cranky babies and Wal-Mart do not mesh very well. Enough said.

Wow, it's been a loooooong time

I can't believe how long it's been since I have updated, but in all honesty, this blog has kind of taken a back seat to all the daily things that go on at the Martin household.

Christmas was great, and since it was Shayna's first one, she has enough toys to last for quite a while. Her first birthday is March 5 and I probably won't even get her any toys (well maybe just 2 or so) because I know everyone else will get her some.

I'm already working on her first birthday plans. We're just waiting to hear back from David's work to see if we can get one of the meeting rooms or not. I have all the ideas for the decorations in my head and it's just a matter of making all the details come together. I really don't know where the time has gone. It seems like yesterday I brought home a tiny bundle of joy who needed me every two hours to feed her and couldn't do anything but lay there. Now she gets an attitude if I take something from her that she shouldn't have, and is trying to walk, but hasn't mastered the skill yet. She has become more independent and that kind of makes me sad.

David and I are still doing great. I think about all the bad relationships I have been in and thank my lucky stars everytime I hear about the heartbreak one of my friends is going through. Not that I wish that upon anyone, but I've had enough of that in my past and that's where I intend to keep it.

We have also got a dog since the last time I wrote anything here. We actually got her back in October and she a little weiner dog named Sadie. We call her the "teenie weenie" Don't tell her she's a dog because she truly thinks she's human. We still have our outside dog Molly, and she comes in sometimes especially when it's storming or really cold outside and my house turns into a zoo then. Sadie runs around and constantly bugs her until Molly gets fed up and gives her a little nip to let her know she's had enough.

David and I have also started planning our vacation for this year, and we're going to go to Texas. His sister lives down there right by Houston and we're going to make the 16 1/2 drive in October because it will be way too hot in the summer. Plus it gives us extra time to save some serious money.

So, I think that's about it for now. My wonderful daughter is laying her crib refusing to take a nap so I have to go. Oh the joys of motherhood.